I want this to be a wise post, a comforting one, an uplifting one, something the Proverbs 31 woman would write...
But I am just me...and when God is silent to our prayers...it can be a time of anger and hopelessness. It seems that our requests have fallen on deaf ears and Dear Jesus, we need some hope for our little girl and her mama and her daddy...they need a meadow in this storm...can you provide this for them?
My heart is hurting and I cannot change or control the situation...I can only give them back to you...but you are still silent...
We thought by her 1st birthday the eating problem would be about solved, but she has regressed and Lord we don't understand this...how can this be?
Mama and Daddy are doing all they can with strength that they summon from who knows where (could it be You!)
I ask for this meadow and hope because my mama's heart is breaking for them...
You sent Holly at the right time...she has been a joy for them and even though I haven't met her, she must be wonderful, because my little Ray said, "Dear God, Thanks for sister and for Holly...Amen" Who could ask for better praise than that.
And I know you're there and the family knows you're there, but a meadow Lord, please, just for a moment a sense of normalcy for this family...
I know about unanswered prayer because for 20 years I have been praying that you would take "The Headache" away from our Wenna Woo...it is like a monster rearing its head many times...but as I think about it Lord, this thorn in her flesh has made her a very tough and determined young mother, wife and teacher. And so I must say, You in your infinite wisdom know what is best for all of our family.
Thank you that you hear me and understand, even this "Silence of God" because when you were kneeling in the garden, all your friends were sleeping and you were weeping all alone...so even in this you understand... "The Silence of God" by Andrew Peterson helped me understand that you are there too, and you do understand that great and terrible feeling "When we're bleating for comfort from Thy staff and Thy rod and the heaven's only answer is the silence of God"
I have been feeling like the "Wreck of the Hesperus"...lately. Handsome asked me what that was and for the life of me, I couldn't tell him...I thought it had something to do with...a wreck of some kind... Anyway, he googled it and it is a poem by Longfellow...it is very sad...it is about a sea skipper and his little daughter who are in a storm...anyway, the ship weathers it, they do not. I have weathered the last several weeks...still am not feeling that great...my stomach is a mess...the cure for some things seems as if it will kill you. I have a few photos of things we did manage to do.
Hope you all had a Happy Easter...He is risen indeed!
I had gotten one for Christmas. I wanted a small camera to take on a trip. But for the life of me I couldn't focus and it had auto focus! I had other people try it and they couldn't either. I took it back.
Anyway, Handsome and our littlest big baby saw something Instapundit had written about a Sony camera...lo and behold it arrived on our doorstep...It is even tinier, but I can see the screen without my cheaters! Oh joy, oh bliss and it takes the most beautiful photos without flash and i can adjust the ISO and many other things. Thank you Sony, Handsome, littlest big baby and Instapundit.
PS...Dear Instapundit, do you know of a good vacuum that will do pergo without spitting everything back onto the floor!